It was my 21st last night! had the most amazing beautiful night, it was so special- exactly what I wanted it to be and more! It was quite small, with a masquerade, semi formal theme. I set up a photo booth with a venetian backdrop and a whole lot of different masks as props, which was so much fun! My speeches were just beautiful, em, kim, michi and gen made the first speech, summing up different aspects of my life and character through novels- loved loved loved it.  My brother made the next speech, which almost made me cry it was so sweet. Then we had mains... chicken ravioli in pesto sauce mmmmmmm. I could not stop eating last night, everything was sooo goood! Gregzi, jeremy and jamie made a speech after mains, which I loved, they found this blog though and quoted it.... hmmmmmmm problem :P Then my grandpa read a poem and then my dad made the most incredible speech about my relationship with my parents, my mum, and our family, followed by a slideshow of childhood photos and videos. Then my mum presented me with a book she wrote about my life, which is the most beautiful thing in the entire world and I don't have words to say how much it meant to me! It is full of memories starting with how my parents met, then my birth, memories of my first word (bobbo- bottle haha), my first steps, early holidays, my grandparents, christmas at sikona with my gran, daves birth, covering my life from my birth to university, with extracts from my dad telling his side of the story. its amazing. The last few pages are letters from my extended family, with stunning letters from my dad, mum, brother, aunt uncle, cousins, grandpas etc. My mum calls this book her love letter to me, and honestly I felt her love on every page, and my dad's as well, and I just love my family so much, my parents mean the world to me, I hope that one day my child has as much love for me as I have for them. I aspire every day to have a relationship and attitude like theirs, they are incredible! After that we had dessert- peppermint crisp pudding, creme brulee and custard tart- but I was so full by this stage couldn't each much! Then we cranked up the music, took to the dance floor and took more epic photos :) Honestly one of the most amazing days I've ever had, I had so much fun planning the whole thing with mum, and the actual night just whizzed by, but it was a night of love, happiness, laughter and friendship. 

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It was michi's 21st last night, it was a carnivalesque theme, and the whole back garden was transformed with fairy lights, bubbles, amazing food, and a marquee and photobooth and a candy floss machine- amazing! It was kind of similar to what I want my 21st to look like. I felt a bit lonely last night, its strange how sometimes you feel loneliest when you're surrounded with people, I just feel a bit out of touch with everyone I guess. It was a lovely night though, mustaches are awesome things, and mustache cookies are even better! 

Happy birthday greg! this is the third birthday I've celebrated with you, which is a bit scary but it kind of makes me happy that we're growing up together. Happy birthday to my beautiful mother as well :) I have a feeling of contentment today, even though my awful media exam is looming, I somehow feel like everything will be ok. I found this quote by Marilyn Monroe the other day, I don't particularly like her, but something in her words rang true for me. Its been a difficult year at times, but a beautiful one. I've learnt a lot. "I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."